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Black Girl in a Country World

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  If it’s your first time here welcome to my blog and if you’ve been here before, welcome back!     If you’ve been on social media at all then you’re aware that Beyonce is releasing a country music album and 2 tracks dropped last week. Now, if you truly know me then you know how I feel about both Bey AND country music. You’ve probably heard me singing and blasting country music on the daily in my home or my car.   I’ll start with my love story and history with country music. I’m a black girl from central Mississippi and I’ve loved country music since I could understand and build a relationship with music for myself. My mom loved blues music so that was my very first introduction to music and don’t get me wrong I still love me some blues music but as soon as I started to develop my own identity, country music stole my heart.    I remember around age 9 creating my own cassette tapes filled with country music. I’d save my money to buy blank cassettes and listen to US 96.3, our Hometown Co
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How’s Your Marriage?

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  " Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud." 1 Corinthians 13:4 Heyyyyy y’all! I’m back on the keyboard and I couldn’t be more excited. I decided to write this instead of podcast it because I really want to take my time and get this right. Today while I was showering many things were placed on my heart. What I needed to do was confirmed even more because everything today and this week aligned with everything, I mean ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING, the pastor taught today. This blog post is about growth, change, love, support, acknowledgment, and self assessment. I want to make sure that’s clear first and foremost. I want to ask you, genuinely, how’s your marriage? What is your marriage rooted in?   My time with God has seemed to happen in the shower these days. While I am thanking and praising Him he speaks back. So as I was showering this morning I found myself thanking God for my husband and for a marriage rooted in love that shines through in everything
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TRAIL OF TEARS...FINDING THE SPACE TO FORGIVE

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Oh, Hey Y’all!!! It’s been a while hasn’t it? Lol If you been listening to my podcasts you’ve been keeping up with all that I’ve had going on. The last one talks a little about why I have this need to come back to where it all began. Blogging. My Foundation. The thing, along with yoga, that helped me through some of the hardest times in my life. It’s early where I am. 7AM. Lately I’ve been having more moments where I have something to say before my feet even hit the floor. My brain wakes up so full, sometimes my heart is so heavy, and I just need to get it out. When this happens I either grab a pen and paper and prepare to grab a mic or I put it on paper to blog…some I never share at all. Today I wanted to share.  This week, last Sunday actually, I completed my journal goals for the week. I wanted to get back to yoga, continue to save and spend less, and the last one threw even me…I jotted in without thinking FORGIVE. Clearly something has been eating me and I haven’t truly dealt with
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L. Hollins S.P.E.A.K.S: Doula Education

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I'm MF Tired...

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As you know writing is a release for me, so, right now you're about to get allll of the heat.  I am motherfucking tired... I am tired of not speaking about what is going on in the world. I comment here and there and I have open conversations with the people around me but open conversations don't always capture the gravity of the pain that weighs so heavy on my chest. I don't speak about the fears that lie dormant inside of my soul. Dormant to you but very active and real to me.  I am tired of waking up everyday to another blow to my community, to my culture, to my people...the men and boys that look like my daddy, my husband, and my nephews. I have 6 nephews that can't even begin to imagine the danger they are in just because they were born black. Boys that I can't protect from everything the world will place at their feet.  I am tired of the fear and the sick feeling that I get in my stomach EVERY SINGLE TIME my husband leaves home without me. I am tired of
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COVID CRAZY!

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Hey yall! I am writing today because times are somber right now. People are afraid, sad, and confused by what is happening across the world right now. COVID-19/Coronavirus has caused us to look at things very differently these last couple of weeks and it currently doesn’t appear to be an end in sight. I am not sure how things are where you live but here in San Antonio, Texas people are panicking and emptying the stores of the basic necessities. There is a limit on the amount of food items you can buy, there is no tissue, Lysol, paper towels, or bleach items on the shelves. Store employees can’t stock their shelves fast enough and people are hoarding. It’s bananas really. I have never experienced anything like this in my lifetime.  I know we are all trying to cope with the quarantine, social distancing, and children being out of school. Naturally, a situation such as this can be stressful, overwhelming, and cause endless amounts of fear. My questions is what are you doing during th
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Who's Fighting with You?

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I started writing this post right after the New Year. I had something on my heart at the time and wanted to share. It’s funny how much you can learn in 5 weeks and not even realize it until you sit down to finish what you started.  Have you ever continuously tried to make it work with someone until you finally give up? You give up on trying, you give up on feeling exhausted, you give up on feeling unheard, you give up on trying to make it work, you give up on the person ever being what you need them to be? Trust me, I’ve been there, done that, and drank the kool-aid. There are some things that just aren’t meant to be and you have every right to walk away from toxicity and unhappiness. Once you have done all you can do and given all you can give the ball is not in your court anymore. The decision to do better and be better is no longer yours to make. Choosing to no longer beg for someone’s love, time, and attention is not truly giving up but protecting your well-being instead. Love
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