Pretty in Pearls

May 29, 2015 Wow!! I woke up to this memory on Facebook! It was the first image of myself  I saw! 1 year ago today!!! It's crazy how I look back at this picture and I now see that I was unhappy with myself, depressed, and ashamed. I remember taking everything out of my closet trying to find something that fit and I still angrily (sadness that comes out easier as anger) found nothing I thought I looked "good" in. I eventually settled for this dress. When I look back over what type of year we had last year I can see where the depression came from. The tears, the loss, the bad news, the scary stuff...it was never ending in 2015. This year has started off rocky but I'm claiming greatness this year! I can't go back to this place. This picture actually motivates me and keeps me going because I know where I don't want to be. I know that whatever we are faced with this year I need to deal with it in a healthy way. May 7, 2016 This is me now.

A lot has happened in a few weeks time and as my last post stated we are not always in control. I'm truly at a point today in which I have to trust what God is doing in myself and Emanuel's life. Trusting and having faith doesn't make the pain any easier, It doesn't make it go away. It simply gives me hope for a brighter future and a bigger plan for our life. One of the MOST important things I've learned throughout this process is to be careful what you say to people. I will no longer "fish" for information from people regarding their personal lives and personal problems. I won't make assumptions or suggestions about your life and what you should be doing right now at this time. Unless this information is solicited I will not make anyone as uncomfortable as I have been this last month. Even though we have no malice or ill intentions and we may be genuinely concerned (there are also people who just want to gossip) it's uncomfortable and really non

Hey Y'all!!!  I'm not even sure where to start since I haven't posted a blog in almost 4 months!! Life comes at you fast and some things end up falling short. :( But we won't dwell on that little faux pas lol.  If you remember, I started out excited about this year and all it had to offer. GUESS WHAT...I am still just as excited today as I was then. I have been in a different place this year wanting to live as much of my life as I possibly can. Enjoying being with my husband and my friends and spending no time on the drama. I have always believed life is short and you only get one. April brought all of that into perspective for me. During the month of March and April Emanuel and I have had a jam packed schedule. I have literally had us scheduled with super fun weekend events and even did a little volunteering. I never expected April to be a month of learning but I was definitely pulled along for the ride..  April, in it's own special way, showed me that Emanue